So here I am after almost 6 weeks of a roller coaster ride. Where I in-inadvertently exposed my family to the destructive nature of the most primal animal that existed in the darkest recesses of my heart.
Fear of the creator.
What a trying TIME, it was for my family that was left aghast with the implosive transformation of a boy into a man. That man is me as I now sit here typing up my new blog.
Now many will argue that there is no such thing as a creator. For them I have only one thing to say “good for you” but everyone has turned to someone in some form or the other, when during the most trying periods of their life, they held their hand together and whispered fervently “IF you’re their GOD, please, please HELP ME”
Funny how many people forget their pleas, to the thing that is out there lol.
That is why my new blog is going to be about Islam because religion saved me from my own latent abilities. Abilities that left me feeling like an outcast and Pariah.
What are my abilities well I do not know you well enough to mention them to you my reader.
So how was I saved from my own worst enemy myself?
Hmmm … well it all started with baby steps.
First thing I did was recite and call out to my Lord by his 99 names.
For those who are from other religions and beliefs let me tell you the significance of the number 99.
• It expresses a realized perfection state, since it is in relation with the number of the perfection, 9.
• According to Bercelius, this number would be the equivalents of the gold, symbol of the Pure Spirit.
In the Bible:
• Number of ewe left in the parabola of Jesus to go to seek the hundredth that was lost. (Mt 18,12)
• Age of Abraham when God appeared to him and instituted an alliance with him. (Gn 17,1)
you enter Paradise if you are learning the 99 names of Allah and behave according to the meaning.
No wonder I thought of turning towards my creator not because of the fear of death, I am ready for death but the fear of the unknown. What would happen to the soul inside me because when you think about it logically, matter (soul) cannot be destroyed or multiplied. So what happens to the matter my soul is made of?
That’s why I turned to the 99 Names of Allah and beseech-ed him to guide me back to the right path.
These words are the 99 names of my Lord all Mighty.
AR-RAHMÂN/The Most Compassionate, The Beneficent, The Gracious
AL-QUDDÛS/The Most Holy
AS-SALÂM/The All-Peaceful, The Bestower of peace
AL-MU’MIN/The Granter of security
AL-MUTAKABBIR/Supreme in Greatness, The Majestic
AL-MUSAWWIR/The Bestower of form, The Shaper
AL-FATTÂH/The Opener, The Judge
AL-MU’IZZ/The Bestower of honour
AL-’ADL/The Just, The Equitable
AL-LATÎF/The Gentle, The Knower of subtleties
AL-’AZÎM/The Incomparably Great
AL-’ALIYY/The Most High
AL-KABÎR/The Most Great
AL-JALÎL/The Majestic, The Revered, The Sublime
AL-WÂSI’/The All-Encompassing, The All-Embracing
AL-WADÛD/The Loving One
AL-MAJÎD/The Most Glorious
AL-WAKÎL/The Ultimate Trustee, The Disposer of Affairs
AL-QAWIYY/The Most Strong
AL-MATÎN/The Firm One, The Authoritative
AL-HAMÎD/The All-Praised, The Praiseworthy
AL-MU’ÎD/The Restorer to life
AL-MUHYÎ/The Giver of life
AL-MUMÎT/The Causer of death
AL-QAYYÛM/The Self-Existing by Whom all subsist
AL-WÂJID/The Self-Sufficient, The All-Perceiving
AS-SAMAD/The Eternally Besought
AL-QÂDIR/The Omnipotent, The Able
AL- MU’AKHKHIR/The Delayer
AL-WÂLÎ/The Governor, The Protector
AL-MUTA’ÂLÎ/The Most Exalted
AL-BARR/The Benign, The Source of All-Goodness
AT-TAWWÂB/The Granter and Accepter of repentence
AL- MUNTAQIM/The Lord of Retribution, The Avenger
AR-RA’ÛF/The Most Kind, The Clement
MÂLIK-UL-MULK/Owner of the Kingdom
DHUL JALÂL WAL IKRÂM/Possessor of Majesty and Honour
AL-MUQSIT/The Just, The Equitable
AL-MÂNI’/The Preventer of harm
AL-WÂRITH/The Ultimate Inheritor
AS-SABÛR/The Patient One
This was my FIRST BABY STEP TOWARDS THE ALMIGHTY. Keep on reading to know what the next baby steps I took towards my Creator were.